Saturday, January 09, 2010

You last stopped here, 039. I thought it was nice that they took note, I appreciate it. But I remember it wasn't that far away. I remember it was much before that. I know that I had to go take care of the cat and mom took a look and then dad did. So yeah, why isn't there a possibility that the number was mixed up. I said I didn't, so I didn't. It would be nice if they took the benefit of the doubt. Then again, maybe I forgot?

How stupid to be upset over something so petty?

Why do I feel like when I am upset, its so very wrong? When other people start debating, yelling, degrading and shit? Its like I cannot be upset. I don't think I was very rude when I left the computer room. I just wanted things to proceed even when I am upset. I already made somewhat of a mess I guess. Yeah, that mess I made was just trying to defend the fact that I didn't stop at 039 and my two sisters insisted that is where I stopped?

Its not about the pictures. I am upset because I feel like my word, my thought and my say doesn't count. I am upset because both sisters gang up on me and it didn't matter what I said because what I believe is wrong anyway. Its not the first time. I remember things through the years. I guess that just triggers old wounds.

However, I know very well that there is a possibility that I am very wrong and it is 039 C: